oops i forgot…

that’s what I might be saying to dio if he were still here… you see, if he were alive, he would be celebrating his 26th bday yesterday (oct. 12)… instead we are remembering the 5th yr. anniversary of his death… how could i have forgotten… well… i really have a lousy memory… i just came from a team building/outing so medyo pagod ako… tska wlang internet s bahay kya nde ako mareremind ni friendster na bday ni dio… ano pa b pwedeng palusot… hehe

i remembered that it was dio’s bday mga 12:05am ng oct 13… when i remembered that it was his bday… tingin ako agad s celfone hoping that it was still oct 12… i kinda felt guilty at hindi ako nkahabol sa bati (para namang may celfone yun… hehe)… cguro i thought na bka hindi lang ung bday ni dio ang nkalimutan ko kundi c dio mismo… now that’s really something far from the truth… just recently i thought about a video i want to make if i have a band (yes i think of these things…) and it would feature ung mga ka-batchko nung high school and in the end of the video may tribute k dio and other batchmates who have passed on (i only know of one other)… 

pero its really easy to sometimes forget about someone na nde mo na madalas kasama… after all, wala na sila dito… pero that shouldn’t mean you have completely forgotten them… it should mean that you have moved on… moving on can be as grand as not crying anymore when hearing his/her name, as subtle as focusing on people who are still with us, or as simple as forgetting one’s birthday… (i bet these can also be signs of moving on from a breakup or something… but how should i know…) but for me, i guess moving on is inevitable… and we shouldn’t feel guilty when that happens… (haba ng palusot ko… hehe)

is this my yearly tribute to dio… not by a long shot… expect something by the end of the week… right now, i might hug people who are dear to me, should be breathing of course… and try to remember their birthdays…